Re: Basis of Theology - Biblical? Philosophical? Or. . ?
Posted: Tue Oct 05, 2010 2:40 pm
oops, wish I could delete that now. I'm not sure how to explain that further.
The previous social worker, from my perception, was trying to make me into someone I'm not and seemed to get frustrated and upset with me. It seemed she was trying to make me fit into something I couldn't fit into. I kept on going over and over on my "special interest" and she'd try to argue against my ideas and thoughts rather than try to help me understand how to live in a world that I don't and didn't want to mentally integrate into. I kept looking at what I felt was the bigger picture and not doing very well with dealing with the details of my life and handling them. This new guy has so far been better at leaving those ideas alone and trying to help me with the details of life, I guess. When he told me I needed to sometimes feed the machine I thought it was going all back to what it was before and it scared me. I didn't get that from his point of view he was telling me that I needed to also focus on the details.
The basic question I had was, how do I deal with living in the world as it is, while knowing it ought to be another way??? This is a real question that I've had a hard time dealing with as an adult. I asked this because it is often hard for me to function but I don't want to deal with this problem by "assimilation" or "getting with the program" which I find depressing....I tried writing a pastor and calling him but no reply. No one can seem to answer me this question or understand what I am saying to them. In my experience, the social worker will say, I need to change my thoughts about the structure and environment of the world to do better. But that sounds like social control to me and from my perspective it is defining "better" as what society says is right instead of it all being based on higher values and principles. If say, the world is based on lower values and principles, rather than the higher principles/values that it should be, and ask how to deal with that (again, gap between intellect and maturity and being able to handle some of my thoughts), it makes no sense to me, to tell me, to change my thoughts and principles and who who I am, to be "happier"......
In my experience, I was being told feelings were the truth, not higher values/principles. I'd be asked, "how do those thoughts make you feel"!
I can't seem to get an answer from anyone and it was driving me crazy.
How does one function in a world while having the imagination and intellect for something better? The only answer that I've been able to come up with is christ crucified which suits me much better than simply changing my values. I recognize the need to able to function on the details of my life now and he's supposedly going to help me with that and there's this asperger's/autistic spectrum community in my area which I am looking into attending or trying to be a part of. I talked with one of the organizers of it, a mother, and she replied to me welcoming me.
The previous social worker, from my perception, was trying to make me into someone I'm not and seemed to get frustrated and upset with me. It seemed she was trying to make me fit into something I couldn't fit into. I kept on going over and over on my "special interest" and she'd try to argue against my ideas and thoughts rather than try to help me understand how to live in a world that I don't and didn't want to mentally integrate into. I kept looking at what I felt was the bigger picture and not doing very well with dealing with the details of my life and handling them. This new guy has so far been better at leaving those ideas alone and trying to help me with the details of life, I guess. When he told me I needed to sometimes feed the machine I thought it was going all back to what it was before and it scared me. I didn't get that from his point of view he was telling me that I needed to also focus on the details.
The basic question I had was, how do I deal with living in the world as it is, while knowing it ought to be another way??? This is a real question that I've had a hard time dealing with as an adult. I asked this because it is often hard for me to function but I don't want to deal with this problem by "assimilation" or "getting with the program" which I find depressing....I tried writing a pastor and calling him but no reply. No one can seem to answer me this question or understand what I am saying to them. In my experience, the social worker will say, I need to change my thoughts about the structure and environment of the world to do better. But that sounds like social control to me and from my perspective it is defining "better" as what society says is right instead of it all being based on higher values and principles. If say, the world is based on lower values and principles, rather than the higher principles/values that it should be, and ask how to deal with that (again, gap between intellect and maturity and being able to handle some of my thoughts), it makes no sense to me, to tell me, to change my thoughts and principles and who who I am, to be "happier"......
In my experience, I was being told feelings were the truth, not higher values/principles. I'd be asked, "how do those thoughts make you feel"!
I can't seem to get an answer from anyone and it was driving me crazy.
How does one function in a world while having the imagination and intellect for something better? The only answer that I've been able to come up with is christ crucified which suits me much better than simply changing my values. I recognize the need to able to function on the details of my life now and he's supposedly going to help me with that and there's this asperger's/autistic spectrum community in my area which I am looking into attending or trying to be a part of. I talked with one of the organizers of it, a mother, and she replied to me welcoming me.